"Operational Thought"

As i read over the statement i made during my last assignment Mr. Portofino had me do, thinking how can i make what i said to Her a reality, how can i come up with a plan of action so i do not repeat the same pattern over again. i think if i observed my thoughts more, block out all the noise, the inner voices, and just really listened to myself i could understand me a little better and by understanding me i will understand what i need to do, influence myself to notice if it is gonna help or hinder my ability to enjoy life. If i did not judge myself so harshly, got upset with behaving as i have, and just thought positively, let the negative fade out, by focusing on everything i have gained, everything i have to look forward to. These problems would have never manifested.

In The Houses of Portofino, if i had took the time to communicate the problems i was having, i would have never inadvertently allowed the negative thoughts to run my thought process. i think now if i could create a new pattern, visit a place to free my mind and visualize, concentrate on thoughts of gratitude, peace, happiness, i can maybe train my brain all over again, deepen the groove and have it automatically think positive instead of always thinking negative, then maybe all the unwanted thoughts and bad vibes, feelings etc. will disappear over time.

Set goals for myself, do not focus on negative energy, remember that what i put my attention on grows, let go of the desire to always try to control things. Be grateful, be patient, be humble, realize that these are stumbling blocks and in order for me to reach the top i have to stay focused, and do not be afraid to ask for guidance. Write out affirmation's, sit and tell myself everyday, read them out loud over and over, learn to love myself, appreciate me and the rest will come freely.