"A submissive's journey "

Who is this woman, that is a good question, she sat here last night thinking, and its hard to express who she is, not that she can't or won't just hard to really say everything there is about her. So here goes, she is this beautiful creature, who is loving and supportive, caring, a woman who loves being a mother. she thrives to be the best she can be, even when she feels she can't, she pushes her kids to be all they can be, because she never want them to fail or fall behind. she is this spirit, that lifts people up even when she is down and out, when her world is upside down, she feels if she can make someone elses day better she is doing good. her life is not perfect by all means, she is a train wreck most days, she has this illness that she has to cope with the best way she can, and some days its hard, but she is not a quitter. 

 

When she thinks about giving up, when there is just no fight left, she looks to her kids, and she thinks to herself 'they can't make it without this girl." They are her inspiration when everything is spinning out of control. she had a convo with her 14 yr old, asking what she thought about her. we do not have the best relationship, and most the time she feels that her 14 yr old hates her. Last night she told this girl she loved her very much, she couldn't possibly make it without her, that she thought of this girl as this person, who never gives up, who fights for what she wants, she makes sure there is love and she always listens and trys to understand. This girl has had a very hard life, and she is very impatient at times, but she wouldn't be the woman she is today without the struggles of her life, and they taught her lessons, she may not learn as fast as some, or be as intelligent as some, but she is the best she can be and that is alright with her.